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Personal.



Sometimes I like to imagine how great it would be to just not care. Not care if he doesn't reply. Not care  if he doesn't try to get in touch with me. Not care if he's seeing someone else. Not care if he doesn't want to see me anymore. Oh how much I'd pay to just. not. care.

It's just the worst in the world when I try to say goodbye but my anger just couldn't last long, it's never strong enough to finalize my decisions. I hate how fickle my heart is and I hate how it's not prioritizing my feelings. Instead, my heart just lets me do the same mistake over and over and over again.

Nobody knows how frustrating it is to love and hate someone so much at the same time.