High Noon Melancholia

Been feeling down in the dumps since last night. I'm not sure if it's the mood swings due to PMS, the stress from all the workload, or.. I don't even know anymore.

Since I'm sad I decided to go on to thoughtcatalog since that's what all sad people do, right? Go and read articles about love, life, and relationships that would make them even sadder. It's Friday, high noon, the sun is shining (more like spitting fireballs but whatever) and I'm at home depressing myself more and more.

I don't think there's anything wrong with what I'm doing. I'm embracing the sadness so the good feelings feel... better. Does that make sense? I do this to make the happy feeling much more enjoyable. Ugh ramblings. Now to the purpose of this post! Here are a few quotes from my thoughtcatalog article adventures. Quotes that I wish to save and post on Twitter but I won't because it'd validate everyone's perception of me being the pathetic lovelorn 20 year-old (that I truly am).


1. When You Are The One Who Loves More

Suddenly, approval and affection from your partner become the only kind of currency that matter to you — the only thing capable of convincing you that you are good and worth loving. Because so much of you has been invested in convincing them that you deserve them, if they don’t recognize it, it can feel that no one ever will.

2. 8 Lies I Told You

I told you near the end that I felt like there was nothing to talk about anymore. In reality, I was afraid I was too invested in you, in us, and I thought I was allowing myself to be tied down too soon. I told you that it just didn’t feel right anymore. Truth is it felt too right, and I pulled away from you because I couldn’t accept you as my this-is-it then.

3. 7 Dating Lessons I'm Still Working On Learning

 It sucks, but it’s also an important part of getting older, realizing that life has the ability to break you. You need to get your heart broken by somebody to realize how important love is and that it shouldn’t be taken for granted, so that when the right person comes along, you’ll be the right person for them. You won’t be that person who doesn’t realize how lucky they are to find the kind of relationship some people wait their whole lives for. You’ll come into the relationship with your heart and eyes open.

You just know

...that the Beckham boys would grow up to be (very) attractive men.

Best ever!

Such a big fangirl of Rizzle Kicks. There's not much artists that I love as much as I love them. This is such a big deal for me until now!

I know that for some this is a small thing and admittedly I used to think that people who die for their favorite actor/musician's attention is a bit crazy but having been a huge fangirl, I know understand. I am now a part of those crazy bunch.

Amy, Amy, Amy

I've loved Amy Winehouse's songs ever since I heard "Rehab" on MTV. Me, being a big blues/soul fan, instantly fell in love with her. Her voice is so full and deep and though at times she sounds like she's rambling, it still works perfectly well with the vocals. She has this extraordinary talent that she doesn't even need to try to sing properly to produce such amazing songs.

Just the other day I went on a search for more of Amy. It's been a while since I last listened to her. I downloaded (pirate, sorry) this album

and it was perfect. The album included some remixes of her old songs. One of which is my most favorite Amy Winehouse song "Tears Dry On Their Own" (Original Version)

The oldschool vibe, 50's americana sound appeals so much to me. It brings me back to the 50's, times that I wasn't even able to experience. She just has that kind of voice that transcends you through time. Her songs make me sad when it's intended to be sad, it makes me happy when the songs intend be to be happy. Her voice is just perfect and it really is sad that we lost her when she was at her peak.

Her life lived in trouble and controversy, it's surprising how she was still able to create such amazing songs. I guess I just have to be thankful that I'm able to appreciate her music, a part of her that will never ever die.

1. You Sent Me Flying

2. Help Yourself

3. Our Day Will Come

4. Valerie (68' Version)

5. Best Friends, Right?

HW HW HW HW HW AAAHHH

Just a quick blog post before I dive back to the pool of work that I still have to do! Aaahhh!! Now's the worst time to be sick I swear to God. I have 2 reports tomorrow, 1 paper to pass and 1 deadly law recitation! What the hell!! Why do all of these fall on the same day?! I'm so pissed off! The only thing that's keeping me sane is the idea that after tomorrow I'll be able to exhale for a while. Weekend please come sooner?

NEW FAVORITE SONG AS OF 10/08/2012

LOL. Anyway! This is the first time I've heard of this song and of this artist! I fell in love for the first 10 seconds!! I'm so hyper right now because I'm just so in loooove with this song!

Leah Labelle's very pretty, too! The beat is perfect! And the video is perfect! And Pharrell's cameo is perfect! AAAAHHHH!!!

Bored + Playlist + Best Book EVER + UH, NORMAN

Hullo! Just a quick post so I could have a reason to procrastinate a bit more. Today's Monday! And tomorrow's Tuesday! But I don't have to wake up early! Because my first class is free cut! I do have 2 quizzes, though that I should be studying right now but I can't be bothered atm BECAUSE! I'M LAZY! I'M TIRED! (Of bumming all day) AND I'M TYPING OUT THIS LAME ASS BLOG ENTRY SO I COULD HAVE A REASON TO PROCRASTINATE A BIT MORE!

I'm so full right now. I had a very very very heavy dinner. I "worked out" a bit this afternoon but fucking shit I gained it all back + more when I had some potato chips plus that dinner. I had tons of white rice and white rice is bad but ugh when paired with the pork and the egg and SHIT IT WAS HEAVEN. My tastebuds died and went to heaven. Might have to squeeze in some blogilates exercises tomorrow. Ugh, problems.

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY! To make this post relevant and for it to have some sense... Here's my "SONGS THAT I LIKE RIGHT NOW" Playlist! *Cue applause*

1. Up Dharma Down - Lazy Daisy
2. Haim - Forever (The Knocks Remix)
3. De La Soul - No
4. Rebecca Ferguson - Fairytale
5. Ed Sheeran - U.N.I.
6. Dj Fresh Feat. My BABIES (Rizzle Kicks) - Skyhighatrist
7. Mo Thugs - It's All Good

Ooh. What a short list. I have yet to listen to Alphabeat's new album, though. So hopefully I can add more songs to this list.

BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS

I read The Fault In Our Stars in one day! I was never able to put it down. That was how lovely and amazing and sad and happy and sappy and wonderful and PERFECT it was! This book made me realize how I take the simplest things for granted and how lucky I am to have healthy lungs and legs. I am, however, jealous of the love Hazel and Augustus shared and I am still very much hopeful that I can find someone who's smart, hot, handsome, PERFECT like him in the future. I sound like a 14 year old but books like that just gives you so much hope and makes you feel so grateful about the simplest of things. You don't need a deep brain to understand it and that makes it so much more beautiful, how close it is to real life with no confusing twists and turns. It's just perfect. I shed buckets of happy-sad tears by the last page. IT WAS PERFECT.

NEW MALE MODEL OBSESSION!

OH HOT DAMN.
Today's handsome model is Norman Theuerkorn. I have no idea how to pronounce his last name but is that even important?! IS HIS NAME EVEN IMPORTANT IF HE HAS A FACE LIKE THIS? Nope.

APPARENTLY. AFTER FURTHER INVESTIGATING-SLASH-STALKING... I found out that Norman Theuerkorn is a German rapper who goes by the gangsta (lol) name "Nockout". Hah.

Here's a video of his rap song which I guess is about weed? I have no idea what he's saying but I can stare at his face all day long. Maybe I should add German to my long list of languages-to-learn-just-so-I-could-understand-what-cute-guys-are-saying.