"You are the best thing in my life I dont know how to behave without you. Id die if you go away"
"I have tried this whole thing of being selfless and taking care of everyone around me and worrying about everyone before myself but im an individual and I feel how I feel when I feel it and right now I feel like I dont ever wanna see you again"
"I can never be a gay man. I hate giving blowjobs and having anal sex"
"I'm falling in love with you"
"That's a crazy thing for you to say. Way too early for you to say something like that"
"I'm sorry"
"I love you so fucking much"
"What??"
"I love you so fucking much"
"Please please don't leave me I want you to stay this night and every night I don't want you to ever leave my house I will burn it down if you leave there's a good shot I will kill myself if you leave I don't wanna be without you"
"I wanna be happy."
"Of course you do, everyone does."
"Yeah but I didn't think I did. I made a promise such a long time ago that I was gonna take in and experiences all of them so that I could tell other people about them and maybe save them but it gets so tiring trying to take in all the experiences for everybody letting anyone say anything to me."
"You think I'm a crazy girl?"
"No, I don't think you're at all. I wasn't thinking that."
"I mean of anything I think I'm too smart and too sensitive and too, like, not crazy. So I'm feeling all these big feelings and containing all these stuff for everybody else's. Ok I read this article about Fiona Apple in New York Magazine where she said 'Oh everybody acts like I'm nuts. I'm not nuts I just wanna feel it all' It's like that's what I'm like. I just wanna feel it all."
"I can't believe you're doing this."
"Doing what?"
"You basically begged me to tell you all my feelings.."
"And I'm glad you did."
"Well, you're not glad that you did. No you're not glad cos you're not acting glad and also you didn't tell me anything about you."
"So do you want me to leave?"
"No. I want you to stay."
"Cos you don't have to say that if you don't mean it."
"I know."
"Okay, I love you. So much. Like to-the-end-of-the-world-and-back so much. But sometimes I love you the way like I feel sorry for a monkey like they just need so much help when they're in such an ugly cage. You know what I mean?"
"This is not correct. You don't want this. You don't know what you're doing. You don't want this."
"You hate everything. I can't be the only thing you like. Maybe I can handle your black soul better when I'm older but I can't handle it now so maybe you just have to go change and then we can be in love in another time"
"I need to change? Maybe you need to change, you ever think about that?"
"I thought you were done with that"
"So did I. I feel like I'm unraveling, Adam. I'm really really scared."
"Stay right where you are, I'm coming to you."
"You're here."
"I was always here."
"I'm the same person I was when he loved me. In fact, I'm an arguably better person because I went away and figured out what I want."
"Letting go doesn't come very naturally to me."
"I really care about you and I don't want to anymore because it feels too shitty for me."
"Please don't tell anyone this, but I wanna be happy"
"I love you. Maybe I'm an idiot for it. But I always have."
"I just want someone who wants to hang out all the time, thinks I'm the best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me."
"I have been dating someone who treats my heart like it's monkey meat. I feel like a delusional, invisible person half the time so I need to learn what it's like to be treated well before it's too late for me."
"All I ever wanted for you was to find satisfaction outside of our relationship"
"There are certain people who are meant to remain in your past. I made a mistake trying to repurpose you"
"Sometimes being really good all the time feels really bad. But I'm on a journey. It's my journey and I'm okay"
"When we're together, he's so there, and he's so present, and then... he disappears for 2 weeks and doesn't answer any of my text messages and I feel as though I invented him."
"I can never be a gay man. I hate giving blowjobs and having anal sex"
"I'm falling in love with you"
"That's a crazy thing for you to say. Way too early for you to say something like that"
"I'm sorry"
"I love you so fucking much"
"What??"
"I love you so fucking much"
"Please please don't leave me I want you to stay this night and every night I don't want you to ever leave my house I will burn it down if you leave there's a good shot I will kill myself if you leave I don't wanna be without you"
"I wanna be happy."
"Of course you do, everyone does."
"Yeah but I didn't think I did. I made a promise such a long time ago that I was gonna take in and experiences all of them so that I could tell other people about them and maybe save them but it gets so tiring trying to take in all the experiences for everybody letting anyone say anything to me."
"You think I'm a crazy girl?"
"No, I don't think you're at all. I wasn't thinking that."
"I mean of anything I think I'm too smart and too sensitive and too, like, not crazy. So I'm feeling all these big feelings and containing all these stuff for everybody else's. Ok I read this article about Fiona Apple in New York Magazine where she said 'Oh everybody acts like I'm nuts. I'm not nuts I just wanna feel it all' It's like that's what I'm like. I just wanna feel it all."
"I can't believe you're doing this."
"Doing what?"
"You basically begged me to tell you all my feelings.."
"And I'm glad you did."
"Well, you're not glad that you did. No you're not glad cos you're not acting glad and also you didn't tell me anything about you."
"So do you want me to leave?"
"No. I want you to stay."
"Cos you don't have to say that if you don't mean it."
"I know."
"Okay, I love you. So much. Like to-the-end-of-the-world-and-back so much. But sometimes I love you the way like I feel sorry for a monkey like they just need so much help when they're in such an ugly cage. You know what I mean?"
"This is not correct. You don't want this. You don't know what you're doing. You don't want this."
"You hate everything. I can't be the only thing you like. Maybe I can handle your black soul better when I'm older but I can't handle it now so maybe you just have to go change and then we can be in love in another time"
"I need to change? Maybe you need to change, you ever think about that?"
"I thought you were done with that"
"So did I. I feel like I'm unraveling, Adam. I'm really really scared."
"Stay right where you are, I'm coming to you."
"You're here."
"I was always here."
"I'm the same person I was when he loved me. In fact, I'm an arguably better person because I went away and figured out what I want."
"Letting go doesn't come very naturally to me."
"I really care about you and I don't want to anymore because it feels too shitty for me."
"Please don't tell anyone this, but I wanna be happy"
"I love you. Maybe I'm an idiot for it. But I always have."
"I just want someone who wants to hang out all the time, thinks I'm the best person in the world, and wants to have sex with only me."
"I have been dating someone who treats my heart like it's monkey meat. I feel like a delusional, invisible person half the time so I need to learn what it's like to be treated well before it's too late for me."
"All I ever wanted for you was to find satisfaction outside of our relationship"
"There are certain people who are meant to remain in your past. I made a mistake trying to repurpose you"
"Sometimes being really good all the time feels really bad. But I'm on a journey. It's my journey and I'm okay"
"When we're together, he's so there, and he's so present, and then... he disappears for 2 weeks and doesn't answer any of my text messages and I feel as though I invented him."
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